Oh those 4 years in college...

The cool wind gushes by,

I stand still in the open sky,

Up and high the clouds fly,

The memories come flooding to thy,

All the friends walking by,

Also the girls, to whom I was shy,

The green grass on which we used to lie,

Looking at the bluest of the blue sky,

To Canteen's patties, pasteries and pie,

The night parties we used to enjoy,

The drinks and smokes we used to try,

In fights setting standards high,

To gibing at lecturers n Profs passing by,

From freshers day to farewels suit and tie,

And many more things,that my thoughts belie,

The meaning for me of the 4 years gone by,

It was like a star studded night sky,

And now its the time to say goodbye,

To a life that made me laugh and cry,

Now I am a free bird in earnest to fly,

But to a destination not known to thy,

Alone, alone in the open sky,

With no 4 years to share my sorrows and joy.

Those 4 years have passed by...........

I dunno :)

Well writing a post after some time... but this also isn't something great... these were the few lines written by me... while having a talk with my friend.... I don't know if these make any sense... but then thought should put it here... so here are they... :)

I walk, walk through the life,
See the world, world in binds,
Live the life, life so confused,
I meet, meet and part in life,
Think about good, good & bad alike,
Take the pen, pen down the thoughts,
Close the eyes, eyes so beautiful,
Deep within, within feelings came & go,
I am awake, awake but not concious,
Well just learn, learn bout life,
Alone in chain, chain in the mind,
Free to fly, fly with full freedom,
Reach to thy, thy is the kingdom.

P.s. Well the title of the post just came to my mind... just as I dunno y...

Parting... that never was.... :)

A few days back, I had a gud fight with one of my best friends.... as usual, it started on some idiotic note and don't knw how it ballooned into a heated argument... which resulted into solid fight. Well, after the fight, we both were sulkin (haha... I knew bout myself n later bout my frnd ;) ). But the fight was such huge that we both were unwilling to talk to each other.... so now what to do... our ego's were turning out to be bigger than us....
Later on, after some time I realised that I am hurtin myself more by losing such a good frnd... and then I felt very bad... so I told myself... even if we are partin ways.. it shud be done in a very nice manner.... there shud be no hard feelings.... so just out of the blue... i jotted down somelines.... and sent it to my frnd....

Here are those lines :

"i learnt a lot from u, i taught a lot to u,
i fought a lot with u, I listened a lot to u,
i made fun of u, I made a fool of myself for u,
i scolded u a lot, u returned the favour on spot,
i made u angry at times, u made me angry at times,
i spoke a lot bout u, I never knew bout u,
i was a child, u were a child,
I was similar to u, u were similar to me,
I thought all was fine, u were on cloud nine,
I failed to understand u, u never told me what u thought,
I almost lost u, u justs thought the same,
I have now lost u, life will never b the same,
I cherish our talks n fights, the wrongs n rights,
the darknes n lights, the song n sights,
but all is gone, n none is here,
Life gave a beautiful friend,i lost the gift,
life taught me a lesson, never to cause a rift."

Well... the lines had their effect.... there was a reply on mail.... and after that we resumed talking... so its like "all well that ends well".... Neways, but I revised an ol' lesson... a broken friendship is more painful, than a hurt ego.... so never try to bring ego in between the frnds... just try to sort out the matter....

Njoy ur time on earth
Manish

P.S. - Had nothin new to write... so had written down.. this incident :D

Hmm...

I look towards the grey sky, the floating clouds there abound,
The gentle breeze moving them, they are just like - lost n found,
Sinking into the deep within, memories are floating by,
Somethings look lively enough, still a missing feeling is thereby,
Symphony turns into cacophony, brightness leads to darkness,
Like drenched in chilling rain, feet routed in the ground,
Unable to hear in the splashing sound, the lost me making sound,
What I take as victory peals, is the sobbing self within reveals,
Standing in the known crowd, still making the self alone,
It is all real or illusion, the sound melancholy or confusion,
The body is to be wasted, soul is to be released,
Still thinking as though taking all, all thats around me,
And ultimately when the time comes, I am the only one,
The uniting of the soul has come, with almighty I become one,
Its again the clouds sound, the feeling remains sound,
What hav I lost n what hav I found, alone in crowd is my destiny abound,
And waiting for God to say - Lost n found.

Random thoughts...

Ha.... finally here after a long time... ( well for me it was a long time.. :D). Well, I still had not formed my mind so as to what will I be scribbling here so am just putting the casual thoughts that are coming to me. For, past few days, life was sort of just passing by.... and me was just whiling my time away.... anyways, today was feelin nice so thought to jot down something...

Actually, this is my third attempt to put down something as with the last two I was not satisfied. Words don't seem to be too willing to come out from within the soul... as this is the place one should listen to. Too much of heart makes the dish too sweet and too much of brain makes the dish too sour the best combination is from the soul as it has got a perfect balance between the too. It knows what preperation is to be served - a lil sweet a lil salty ;) Soul is the reason of your existance.... without it you cease to exist anymore... So, I always try to listen to the inner voice as for me it pays... even if initially it seems to be too harsh or too mellow... but later on the results are just great. Then be it in my personal life or my career. I do not say that the result is always in your favour but it teaches you too much for you to regret it.
Well, talking bout things... there's nothing much going on my side... I am not doing anything, still I dont have time... I am thinking but still nothin useful comes out.... I am muddled up and still I scribble down something.. bout which I myself dont knw much. Life is just taking me for a ride for a past few days.... I dont knw whats the reason... as am smiling but the smile seems to be false... I am laughing but it seems to be hollow and I am writing but it seems to be devoid of any meaning.... Well, well... the story is unending so I dont want to let ti drag n for the time being this is there on my blog.... But I assure u all something nice will be coming up soon.... :D ... Till then bbye.... take care and enjoy ur time :)

I had taken this picture a few days back, when had gone to outing with my friends and had a great time... I was just held by the way these empty boats were floating in the water.... they seem to tell me something but alas I am not able to find the hidden meaning but am njoyin the pic :)

Varanasi,Benares, Banaras, Benaras, Kashi, and Kasi

A couple of days back... the whole of India shooked under the twin blasts that occured in Sankatmochan Temple at Varanasi. It looked as though again a war is awaiting the Indians, so that they are never able to rest peacefully. The blasts were also of no meagre measure, they were of high intensity and the day was also symbolic. But, the main point behind the whole issue was to create unstability in the country at large and also to challenge the country and its people at the same time.
I myself was shocked at the news of the blasts and it shook me deep within, seeing the place of the blast - A Temple. A place of worship, a place of faith, a place of peace.... What did the people, who did it, gain out of it? Did it serve some useful purpose, did it satisfy their thirst for blood or did it pacify their already overflowing emotions.... nobody knows that, but its sure that they are not humans or rather they cannot be considered as humans. What does a person or persons gain out of killing their fellow beings - it only shows their mentality - a sick mentality. People are being butchered at the place of faith.
And the irony of the whole thing was , the blasts had occured at a place that itself means to give respite from trouble that is, Sankatmochan ( one who relieves you of troubles) and now his own home is in trouble - wah.. what an irony. All this is enough to shake one's faith in the lord and for some people it did also... ( I was also skeptical....) that sometimes even the almighty seems to desert you. But, then an incident occured in my life and it again proved me wrong about the creator. An incident which made my faith in the all powerful stronger than it had been before, and dispelled all my misgivings about him. I faced the worst crisis of my life and came out unsracthed.. literally... Anyways, it was bout me... but there are still hundreds who have their faith shaken and I am sure that the all powerful will make them realise about his existance sooner or later as required.
God Bless All

P.s. The title of my post lists out all the names Varanasi was known as.

Who's busy these days...

Ha... oh... it looks like everyone is n was busy for a few days.... what to say I too was busy.... but still can't say that I did something useful... It looked as though time was just rushin past the few days, was not able to complete a number of tasks on time and so on. Even now had got some work on hand.. but ab aisa laga ke bahut ho gaya, mujhe ek break chaheye, and what is better than writin a post on the blog.
Past few days in India, a number of important events took place... startin for the presentation of the budget by our finance minister to the arrival n then the departure of the president of US Mr. Bush, to the die hard fans of cricket the ongoing test match between India and England ( where Indian camp is in shambles ) . These were the few events I noticed in the past few days, for rest I wasn,t even aware of whats goin around me. Had a solid workload from my college and the from today we had our mid-sems so will be cutting this sorry state for a couple of days more..... now thats enough of my lamenting....
Coming, back to the recent topics the most important with common mans point of view was the budget, though I was not able to browse through the whole speech, what I gained that he left the tax structure as it was but he increased the service tax to 12%. Now, its like I am not askin for dowry but yes, will take whatever you give to ur daughter like a car n all... What is this Mr. Finance Minister, you make us pay tax in a different sort of way... we are already reelin under a lot of tax pressure n u increased the service tax more, which irrespective of your income, you have to pay to have any service. He also increased the service tax net, well thats okay, but the increase will be pinching... now for u all see it translate into an increase in your mobile bill, your laundry bill, increase in cost of daily good n vegetables ( as they are using transport industry.. :) ) and so on....
The second thing was the excise cuts... here people were very happy that the FinMin has reduced excise for small cars... n immediately the manufacturers dropped the price but on the other hand, he made the OEM accessories more costly and unviable... so now forget, the accessories that your dealer offered yo for free... so more or less you gained nothing. The icing on the cake was the levying of tax on computers... now here the catch, we want to make India an IT superpower and our FinMin helps the cause by raising the enrt barrier ( read costly computers ) thats the irony of India and its people. The man at the centre is fooling round everyone and people are very happy with him... Though some of his efforts are worth applauding but then most of the things done the our Hon. FinMin has left a gaping hole in the wallet of the middle class people of the country....
These were some of the things I got to know bout the budget, while am waitin to study the thing in full but as of now... this was what I felt bout it... so here my opinion..... And about the visit of Mr. Bush... well I'll leave something for next time also ;)
Till then I'll take your leave..... Hope to see u all soon :)

P.S. : well my heading of the post and the content is all irrelevant so try to bear with me, and dont throw curses on me :)

Goals...

I was just havin a chat with one of my friends and we just hit upon the word GOAL... For each one of us the word has got different meanin but the essence is same for all of us... the ultimate aim or desire... I would stick to " Aim" as the meanin as it sounds good ;)
We all have a goal in mind all the time which we achieve to reach by our efforts... the goal may be a short term or long term it may be a career oriented or social one... but yes they are always there. We sometimes find the path to them as difficult but the apex is always beautiful... Its just like soccer, where u have a goal with the path full of obstacles(opponents) and when u put the football in the goal ( thats ur aim in the match).. u feel the feelin of elation... u see urself on the top of the world at the moment and thats the moment of glory for you. Same is the case of life... we all have the goals set for ourself as I said before and when the crowing moment comes we are on the top of the world...


But then one thing comes to my mind, are material goals the real goal of one's life... I am at sea regarding this point as one should be aware of his ultimate aim in life... does playin in the muddy puddle of money or makin the best of ur life. What does it really matter? Keepin a Maybach or sleepin peacefully every night. Can all the money in the world but the smile for ur family, well thats hard to say. As for some money is everything. Theres no denyin the fact that yes money is always needed but some social or spiritual goal is also needed. As without the food for thought, how can we make sure that we are developin our thinkin process. Without some different sort of goal in life we are completely clueless about where are we headin, what is the inner aim of ourselves... and in the end we realise that its late... we then search for peace which is always within us n never searched for... so make a goal in life that caters to ur spritual as well as mental development apart from the day to day business and see the changes that occur in u as well has how they have impacted ur life.....

"Life as a human is a special gift of god, so dont waste it but give urself some food for thought."

Don't Know Y???

For past couple of days, I was not in my senses, meaning... I was just lost. I was not doing anything, just eating and napping. My mind was full of things but I wasn't able to make out them. This was givin way to an uneasiness within me, as when you are not able to have clear thoughts you don't feel you as yourself. I was in utter confusion, it looked as though my brain was givin a error of memory overflow.... and then also I was helpless.
I listened to music which relaxeed me a bit but that was not enough, I made drawings but that also wasn't good... at the end of the day I was just fretting over small things, but as it had to be things were getting worse. Last nite, I did some light reading which relaxed me to a great extent and this made my day better today, while for the final touch I thought that why not write out some post so that my excess of energies (positive or negative) are spent out and I become calm once again. The worst part was that I was not able to give out energies in the usual ways... anger, hitting walls, shouting etc.... It was all jumbled up. But now after writin out something quite haywire here, I am feelin better. I dont knw the real thing.... I don't know anything...I don't knw the surroundings......



I don't know why? Why does it happen? Why does it not go? Why does it makes u sad? Why does it makes you feel bad? Why do u not feel yourself at the time? Why is that it happens anytime? Just Why? Why are there no answers?

Mereko TAG kiya :) ... khush mat ho... hate waala tag hai... :P

" There's nothin to be hated in this world, its all about how you look at things"

Hahahaha... Arti tagged me. Its bout the things that annoy me the most... Well sometimes nothing can annoy me, while sometimes even the slightest thing can annoy me to the hilt. But, if speaking my mind things are not bad... its the way your mind sees them... if not in good spirits anything can annoy you. Like that its all personal perceptions... But now I have to go on with my list of things that I hate or that annoy me the most.... so here are somethings....

1. I hate those people don't put in efforts for their goals and when they fail, they blame their fate and luck. They don't realise that it ws their fault and not bad luck.
2. I am annoyed by those who just think that except their own work, everybody is doing some crap of work.
3. I hate those who are more interested more in what others are doing rather than concentrate on their own work.
4. I detest those who keep double standards, saying something else and doing something else. Also those of the species who are more interested in back-biting.
5. I abhor hypocrisy.
6. I am annoyed by those who think public places are their drawing rooms, and having no consideration for other people. Smoking like an engine, talking like a loud speaker.... and what not.
7. I really get angered, by those who think the whole world except their home is a garbage dump.
8. People who are more ready with excuses, than their work annoy me truly.
9. I abhor those of the kind who think they are the law makers for the society and when it comes to their own lifes.... then its like " laws are made to be broken...."
10. I am annoyed by those persons who are made to laugh at each and everything, be it grave also. And makin fun of the less fortunate ones, than them.

Last but not the least, all the bad things within me, annoy me to the maximum, as they are cause for my debacle in one way or the other. and by removin them I hope to refine myself.

Chalo... ab major work to ho gaya...likhne ka major work.. but when going thru the post I thought certain changes to be made... but then its the first thought that matter as they show what were ur immediate reactions and whats going on in your sub-concious. Neways, now comes the interesting part.... samajhe nahin kya... arey tag karne ke liye koi ... nahin to phir is tag ka yahan dardnak aant ho jaayega... isiliye... I want to say ki koi mil gaya...to a chalte hain shikar pe... aur yeh hai mere hit list ... :P

• Nidhi
• Neo
• Atul
• Megha
• Hiren
• Illusions

well... till now these are the people... but as alwys those who want to follow me can always follow me...

P.S: Kuch baatein rah gaye aur kuch mein zyada he kah diya. Par then its life... :)