Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Don't Know Y???

For past couple of days, I was not in my senses, meaning... I was just lost. I was not doing anything, just eating and napping. My mind was full of things but I wasn't able to make out them. This was givin way to an uneasiness within me, as when you are not able to have clear thoughts you don't feel you as yourself. I was in utter confusion, it looked as though my brain was givin a error of memory overflow.... and then also I was helpless.
I listened to music which relaxeed me a bit but that was not enough, I made drawings but that also wasn't good... at the end of the day I was just fretting over small things, but as it had to be things were getting worse. Last nite, I did some light reading which relaxed me to a great extent and this made my day better today, while for the final touch I thought that why not write out some post so that my excess of energies (positive or negative) are spent out and I become calm once again. The worst part was that I was not able to give out energies in the usual ways... anger, hitting walls, shouting etc.... It was all jumbled up. But now after writin out something quite haywire here, I am feelin better. I dont knw the real thing.... I don't know anything...I don't knw the surroundings......



I don't know why? Why does it happen? Why does it not go? Why does it makes u sad? Why does it makes you feel bad? Why do u not feel yourself at the time? Why is that it happens anytime? Just Why? Why are there no answers?

13 comments:

the wannabe indian punkster said...

Manish...u need the power of alcohol..hee hee......:)
you must be thinking what the heck....but I tell you, u need it....if you want anymore proof check out my latest post and hopefully itll cheer you up too....atleast my woes cheer up other people....:)
cheers!
Megha

Neetika said...

Hey there is no new bout this post as you are always lost....
There are no answers coz you ask lot of questions
Just cheer up and see this world is so beautiful, you urself will find answers someday
I think it happens with most of the people.....may be you are feeling lonely
Keep smiling, this is the best thing given by the god to the humans
BTW: I came second....
Regards

Kishley said...

hmmm... just why? just why do u keep asking these why-O-why questions? LOL.. just kidding.. emotions form a huge part of our being.. and its normal to feel sad/happy/curious/etc. at different times of life.. everyone goes through these emotional phases.. dont worry.. u'll feel alright in sometime.. try to be happy n talk to some fren of urs...
doll

Manish said...

@Megha
Yup... ur post was quite interesting... the hangover is still lurkin ;)
just a lil low a day n cheerful next day thats me sometimes dunno y? again the Y? but me is fine now :)
GBU n TC

@Neetika
Yup... U SECOND :P
i knw me always lost... but then I think most of us are.. n few try to find out y?? yup.. as u said smile is the best thing and usually i wear one throughtout the day :)
thanx for ur words

@Doll ( Kishley)
Yup.. I knw me always for too many Y's... but then i sometimes feel that i wanna knw things... neways... this is a phase n will pass... so no probs :) ...
BTW : nice template of urs
GBU n TC

nomadic_waves said...

Don't we all go through such phases in our lives. C'mon get ur act together and strike back at the odds, with a vengeance...

Manish said...

@Nomadic_waves
Thanx fro droppin by...
Yup, we all have this phase n the more faster we get over it the more its better... n yup tryin to put my act together... thanx fella for ur words...
GBU

Hiren said...

Writing tends to focus the brain" I write to know what I think" is an old Indian saying. That is why it acts as a good catharsis when you are down. You are right about the whys? No answers- so why seek the whys in the first place?

Arti Honrao said...

It just happens to us...
It happened to me too, a few days back and I am now out of it, n hope that u r out of it too...
let the moment pass and move ahead in life...


GBU
Arti

Manish said...

@Hiren
Yup... I think u r right :)

@Arti
Yup... me too lettin the things pass...
thanx

GBU n TC
Manish

sebia said...

i dont know how old r u..so it is quarter life crisis,or mid life crisis?..
mez in wrse mood thn u are..like whn u sit and u see everything but nuthing registers in..
whn u feel all ur real life turned in 2 a reel ones..images scenes simply flashiny bye?
whn u dont even feel like visiting ur blog(thts the frst time and really alarming 1)..
when u look at ppl and u feel so alienated 2 wards them..
whn fr a change u can analyse situations in v crisp and rational manner,rather then through the shades of purple haze
whn u start loving sleep.taking naps after every 10 mins.and u awake dreamless and sleepless
whn u look at food and can dissect all the way down 2 its ingredients
whn u feel tht u r nuthing more thn a couch potato
ok this list is getting endless..and i will b writing a post in ur comment section..and u will feel like throwing a tantrum..even in this mumbo in limbo state of mind:)
tc
and hi im SEBIA:)(wht a corny intro..like meet me im ARNIE:)

Manish said...

@Sebia
well age sometimes does not matter...
neways.. it looks like everybody in this world is goin thru a rough patch at the same time.... it makes u feel as though the life has got no meaning n we just feel lost... but then its a temporary phase n the mre quickly we get over it the better its for us... as it gives us nothin but sadness... n lifes too short to be sad...
keep coming
God bless u
BTW: thanx for visiting

Varun Sadana said...

Seems someone has a lot of free time to think. Its good though all it makes you feel is that you are one non existant soul (dog pissed in a hindi slang), but dont you worry. Infact i feel its good you having these 'illusions'. Am no doc or something, just that a lot of times i feel the same, just that i feel really powerful after that. Powerful in the sense of myself. I becomes really strong (not to be mistaken with ego). try enjoying it. You feel great. Ciao!!

Manish said...

@Varun
yup... time is always there... only u need to have the maximum efficiency...
yup... everyone faces this at some point of ur life... but if u get the answers...u make it, some good sense...
neways... each one is an individual and has got his/her thoughts... so dont think bout the world... but b what u want to be urself
keep smilin
GBU