Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Don't Know Y???

For past couple of days, I was not in my senses, meaning... I was just lost. I was not doing anything, just eating and napping. My mind was full of things but I wasn't able to make out them. This was givin way to an uneasiness within me, as when you are not able to have clear thoughts you don't feel you as yourself. I was in utter confusion, it looked as though my brain was givin a error of memory overflow.... and then also I was helpless.
I listened to music which relaxeed me a bit but that was not enough, I made drawings but that also wasn't good... at the end of the day I was just fretting over small things, but as it had to be things were getting worse. Last nite, I did some light reading which relaxed me to a great extent and this made my day better today, while for the final touch I thought that why not write out some post so that my excess of energies (positive or negative) are spent out and I become calm once again. The worst part was that I was not able to give out energies in the usual ways... anger, hitting walls, shouting etc.... It was all jumbled up. But now after writin out something quite haywire here, I am feelin better. I dont knw the real thing.... I don't know anything...I don't knw the surroundings......



I don't know why? Why does it happen? Why does it not go? Why does it makes u sad? Why does it makes you feel bad? Why do u not feel yourself at the time? Why is that it happens anytime? Just Why? Why are there no answers?

12 comments:

twip said...

Manish...u need the power of alcohol..hee hee......:)
you must be thinking what the heck....but I tell you, u need it....if you want anymore proof check out my latest post and hopefully itll cheer you up too....atleast my woes cheer up other people....:)
cheers!
Megha

Kishley (Dolly Sapra) said...

hmmm... just why? just why do u keep asking these why-O-why questions? LOL.. just kidding.. emotions form a huge part of our being.. and its normal to feel sad/happy/curious/etc. at different times of life.. everyone goes through these emotional phases.. dont worry.. u'll feel alright in sometime.. try to be happy n talk to some fren of urs...
doll

Manish said...

@Megha
Yup... ur post was quite interesting... the hangover is still lurkin ;)
just a lil low a day n cheerful next day thats me sometimes dunno y? again the Y? but me is fine now :)
GBU n TC

@Neetika
Yup... U SECOND :P
i knw me always lost... but then I think most of us are.. n few try to find out y?? yup.. as u said smile is the best thing and usually i wear one throughtout the day :)
thanx for ur words

@Doll ( Kishley)
Yup.. I knw me always for too many Y's... but then i sometimes feel that i wanna knw things... neways... this is a phase n will pass... so no probs :) ...
BTW : nice template of urs
GBU n TC

Tabula_Rasa said...

Don't we all go through such phases in our lives. C'mon get ur act together and strike back at the odds, with a vengeance...

Manish said...

@Nomadic_waves
Thanx fro droppin by...
Yup, we all have this phase n the more faster we get over it the more its better... n yup tryin to put my act together... thanx fella for ur words...
GBU

Anonymous said...

Writing tends to focus the brain" I write to know what I think" is an old Indian saying. That is why it acts as a good catharsis when you are down. You are right about the whys? No answers- so why seek the whys in the first place?

Arti Honrao said...

It just happens to us...
It happened to me too, a few days back and I am now out of it, n hope that u r out of it too...
let the moment pass and move ahead in life...


GBU
Arti

Manish said...

@Hiren
Yup... I think u r right :)

@Arti
Yup... me too lettin the things pass...
thanx

GBU n TC
Manish

sebia said...

i dont know how old r u..so it is quarter life crisis,or mid life crisis?..
mez in wrse mood thn u are..like whn u sit and u see everything but nuthing registers in..
whn u feel all ur real life turned in 2 a reel ones..images scenes simply flashiny bye?
whn u dont even feel like visiting ur blog(thts the frst time and really alarming 1)..
when u look at ppl and u feel so alienated 2 wards them..
whn fr a change u can analyse situations in v crisp and rational manner,rather then through the shades of purple haze
whn u start loving sleep.taking naps after every 10 mins.and u awake dreamless and sleepless
whn u look at food and can dissect all the way down 2 its ingredients
whn u feel tht u r nuthing more thn a couch potato
ok this list is getting endless..and i will b writing a post in ur comment section..and u will feel like throwing a tantrum..even in this mumbo in limbo state of mind:)
tc
and hi im SEBIA:)(wht a corny intro..like meet me im ARNIE:)

Manish said...

@Sebia
well age sometimes does not matter...
neways.. it looks like everybody in this world is goin thru a rough patch at the same time.... it makes u feel as though the life has got no meaning n we just feel lost... but then its a temporary phase n the mre quickly we get over it the better its for us... as it gives us nothin but sadness... n lifes too short to be sad...
keep coming
God bless u
BTW: thanx for visiting

Smokin Joe said...

Seems someone has a lot of free time to think. Its good though all it makes you feel is that you are one non existant soul (dog pissed in a hindi slang), but dont you worry. Infact i feel its good you having these 'illusions'. Am no doc or something, just that a lot of times i feel the same, just that i feel really powerful after that. Powerful in the sense of myself. I becomes really strong (not to be mistaken with ego). try enjoying it. You feel great. Ciao!!

Manish said...

@Varun
yup... time is always there... only u need to have the maximum efficiency...
yup... everyone faces this at some point of ur life... but if u get the answers...u make it, some good sense...
neways... each one is an individual and has got his/her thoughts... so dont think bout the world... but b what u want to be urself
keep smilin
GBU