Raaz...

Har nazar mein tha ek raaz ghehra,
Mujhe har tarf nazar aaye bas tera he chehra.
Thi unn aankhon mein ek aisi kashish,
Jaisi na de sake koi charas na he hashish.
Uss raaz ki khatir meine bhuli di apni zindagi,
Har lamha apna, har apni khushi.
Jiya toh jiya bhi kya aisa jo ji he na paya,
Jaanunga woh raaz bann ke tera saya.
Teri har nazar mein ab bas jaunga,
Raaz jaane bina ab na reh paunga.
Har lamhe mein teri hogi aahat meri,
Ab na duur hai woh raaz waali aanken teri.
Bas ab aayega ye raaz unn aankon se bahar,

Tujhe na chahega phir koi na karega tujhse pyar.

Clouds...

When I see the sky in the morning rains,
Its a shade of grey and a smearing paint,
Lots of shades are flowing around,
All of them are say blue, black and white sound.
Through the haziness of the clouds I do see,
The softly shining sun and its rays in the gray sea,
Rain drops like a showers of pointed arrows,
I love the rains or do I hate them still I dont know.
Making the grass green wherever it likes,
Uprooting the trees when its fury strikes,
The sky still remains the same palette of shades,
Beneath it lies the heart unknown in various states.
What is the aim is unknown to one and all,
Its all masked beneath the great facade of clouds,
Shades of varying degrees mask the sea of emotions,
All what I see is the dull and dusky coulds,
Is it the morning rains or the evening shroud...

Words in life...

"Do the words flow as they intend to or do they flow as we intend them to?"

The flow of the words was unabated strong and wrong,
But to my cranky ears they were a sweet song.
I never realised the pain they had caused to one and all,
As my world like my heart was very small.

They flowed like the waters in a gushing stream,
Less was the compassion more was the scream.
They stung everyone straight in heart,
Tearing it to bits, tearing it into thousands of parts.

Making the life so sad to be lived as it was,
It was my words that were the cause.
Never did those stop as they should have been,
My eyes were wronged by a selfish screen.

All the while I was the only one,
At the end it was really me but having no one.
They took away all that I had with me called life,
They were less of butter more of knife.

Cutting away all the ties and bonds,
In my heart now lies a dried tear pond.
Words were all that I thought I had till that time,
At that point I realised they were not even mine.

They never beloned to me as they were free from ties,
They poured from my mouth in a bunch of lies.
Time said it was they who ruined me,
My heart saw the truth it was not them but only 'ME'.

My ego was the culprit for the downfall,
Words were only a medium in all.
All the saying goes unheeded in life till the end,
Things could be very bad, but still never too late to amend.

Did I say all that I had wanted to?
I don't know the answer, neither you.
Still a lot more remains in my heart till date,
Would pour out more on a later date...

Thami hui dastaan...

Ruka hua tha ye nazaara,
Aaj anjaan ho gaya jahan saara,
Har lamhe ko jo jeena chaha tha,
Fhoot gaya jaise koi gubbara.
Aaj ander se hai dard aisa,
Koi samajh na paye waisa,
Jis zindagi ke liye ladi thi ladai,
Koi sacchai usse bacha na pai.
Har sach ko jaisa raunda hai yahan,
Jaane ab iss dharti ka hoga kya,
Ruk gayi hai zameen ye dekh,
Tham gaye hain kismat ke lekh,
Jal gaya hai zameer hamara,
Ruk gaya hai aaj har nazaara,
Shayad kabhi lage sabko koi pyara...

Words of Life...

For some people writing is an art,

For me its my own part.

I don't know where to start,

I don't know how to start.

When I am happy or sad,

When life's good or bad.

I don't remember a thing,

Its just when the heart sings,

The words start to flow in unison,

I just combine them into one.

Life's story is more or less the same,

Its your friends but with a different name.

Just let life flow with time,

Be it a sad or a happy rhyme,

Life is yours and life is mine,

Live life all the time, everytime...

Just for you " FRIEND" ...

There may be a lot of things unsaid,
A lot of things undone,
A lot of emotions unfelt,
A lot of life unlived.
Whether it was fate or time,
Whether your actions or mine.
It was a life that was lived together,
A life full of happy matter.
Still in my heart a part goes missing,
A part still yearning.
There it still harbors a pain,
All the time its just your name.
Life wouldn't ever be the same,
Life it was when you came.
Its the calmness that runs down deep,
During storm on whose shoulder's do I weep,
The emptiness would be with me till the end,
Life's meaningless without you my Friend.

Pain of success...

The heart is shattered once again,
Inside me it brings a lot of pain.
Words are missing to express my feeling,
Under heavy pressure is my soul reeling.
Life again became a place devoid of heart,
It has cut my soul into many part,
Victories are to be celebrated in fashion,
For me am all alone on all occassions,
Don't know what to say or speak,
Through my eyes do dry tears leak.
Havnt got the courage to ask for more,
My lifes a bag full of pores.
Its a way that I do stand tall in the face of soul,
I am all alone, even though have reachd my goal.
Its a battle of emotions as you want a celebration,
But for everyone its just a common occasion.
The eyes strain for tears to flow,
But they refuse to come, however slow.
Its not as though am devoid of pain,
Its just like dancing in rain full of pain.
I am happy , I like to dance in rain,
Its my tears that flow, but am not in pain.
I am standing tall, standing proud,
I am as always alone in the crowd...

Life is not what it looks like...

Sitting in the hot noon sun,
I was thinking about none,
Trying to gather pieces of time,
When life was like sweet lime,
A bit of sugary, a bit of salty,
But now its noe, its just faulty.
I scramble over the memories,
Of the numerous journeys,
Still there's a void within me,
I am empty to thee,
Running about in the life's walk,
I dont have anyone to talk,
Things may be sweet and beautiful,
But the tastes are bland and tearful,
Saying a lot is still not lot,
In the life's web I am caught,
Trying to break free from the prison,
I want to be like the rising sun,
I am searhing for the only one,
I am searching one from one...

Jeevan...

Bas baitha hun likhne ke liye,
Har shad mein hai gahrayi,
Ek nazar daal ke dekho inme,
Milon faile hui hai tanhai.

Jeevan ke yeh reet hai aisi,
Samajh na paye sab koi,
Samajh samajh ke jo samjhe,
Hari ko samjhe wohi.

Jo hai likha woh nahin hun main,
Jo na likha wahi hai mera roop,
Likhne waale ko tum samjho,
Likhta hai jaise chanuon aur dhoop.

Tanhai hai tere saathi,
Na hai koi ab aur bhi tera,
Raat bhar kyon rota hai tu,
Shayad ek din hoga savera.

Kya maine socha tha,
Kya maine hai paya,
Yeh jeevan toh bas moh hai,
Aur har vastu hai maya.

Aaj soch raha hai har antarmann,
Kya hai mera satya,
Tanhai hai ab mera saaya,
Mrityu ko har jeev ne paya.

Har aane wala ek din toh jata hai,
Phir mera mann kyon ghabrata hai,
Aaj toh phir uday hua hai mera,

Abse har din hai naya savera.

Am I happy...

Am I happy or its just a facade,
Am I sad or its just my heart.
Feelings abound still without sound,
Heart in pain but still game.
I fail to feel the feeling intended,
Feelings in heart have all ended.
In some scattered pieces is life mine,
Not like ambosia, but like brine.
Am I happy or just I try to be,
I don't know but I want to be 'Me',
Lost here lost there,
Am lost everywhere,
Happiness is what I am searching for,
Will try to find it for sure...