Blocking of Blogger domains...

Its really disheartning to see that the Indian Govt has brought down its axe on the blogs. Just bcoz few of those were not giving out the correct content or the content which the government thought was not in the interest of the country. The govt. may b right about the content but does it mean curbing the right to speech of a commoner. Its basically autocratic means of functioning, where the ruler decides whats right n whats wrong and in this way, the system functions.
For the govt. the list they gave to the ISPs it could have been more specific but no, without any reason, the whole domains were blocked. This basicaly means that somewhere deep down there is a serious fault in the functioning of the system. For a selected few the whole lot is being punished, thats unfair.Basically after the Mumbai serial blasts the govt. has got into action but the way the things are going on its sad. For some reason they are curbing the freedom to speech and dont knw what they hold for us in the future. But the basic fact remains that the intelligence has failed and now no use crying over spilt milk, try to address the basic cause of the problem, the leaks and not the commoner.
I think that the govt. will realize that, by curbing the freedom of speech they are doing nothing much but only hurting the sentiments of ppl more n more. Lets hope for a better tomorrow.God bless all the souls.

No title for this one.... Readers' are welcome to suggest one :)

Counting the seconds I was there,
Making it into hours of time,
Stretching those into days,
Finally ending into decades.
Life was stretching into years,
but I was still rooted to a place,
Things were moving n gaining,
But I was still searching for a name.
Somethings made sense during the trip,
While I was tripping over the rest,
Mutable thoughts never ending,
WOrries n troubles round the clock.
Mooching in the feelings forest,
Wanting to know the real thing,
Nearer as I came to it,
Farther it wades into space.
Seeing things come n go,
I age through the process,
Wisdom is hard to attract,
Failing in which I cannot.
Greying the body is there,
But the grey matter is not grey,
I realise viewing in different light,
Hard questions' answers I find.

Happiness...

I took the pen to scribble,
The few memories I had,
Little of them here,
And little of them there.

Beautiful in a way I say,
The time spent with my friends,
Feelin of those days,
I just lay happy awake.

Sweet things were they,
Heavenly in their own way,
Oh.. oh.. what a life it is,
Few things here and a few there.

I write here abound,
Feelings flowin profound,
singing in its own way,
My hearts merry and gay.

I lie with open eyes,
Flowing in the memories clouds,
A lil' dark and a lil' light,
Oh my what a beautiful sight.

Happiness is there to stay,
Beautiful and merrier than ever,
THe way things come and go,
My days are more livelier...

Am happy am happy am happy
more than i cud say....
making more of the time I have
and more of my earths stay....
am happy am happy am happy....
what a day i say......
am happy am happy am happy....

I want to write...

I want to write,
but am not able to do so.
To share my thoughts,
But there are none.
A good one was coming,
but has lost its way.
I still fail to say,
what I wanted to say.
A ripple is caused,
I search for the cause,
And in doing so,
I failed to notice the effect.
Everytime is life the stage,
or its the character.
I fail to understand,
part and plays of life.
So how can something,
do I write.
Again I hold the blank page,
With just ink drops.
As I cant write,
I can't write, write a word.

Walking...

Walking towards the horizon,
i see the rising sun,
the line seems to move farther,
or was it never nearer.

I always want the possible,
Or is that thing always false,
towards the impossible i walk,
and shatter my woven thoughts.

Some say i think a lot,
for other I am a brat,
I myself think that,
I want what i have lost.

Never in the past u can go,
Nor the future comes true,
I wade thru the present,
Which i think was never meant to.

The sun is coming nearer,
I am happy for a while,
It all seems so real,
Or is this superficial.

Shadows grow n shrink,
I come to life's brink,
Feelings come n go within,
But am entity with no mind.

They why, why theres a burnin,
Burnin deep inside this entity,
One who just listens to world,
But knws its better not to react much.

The horizon again seems far,
Sun is setting on horizon,
Was it all mirage to me,
I was never nearer to it.

Somethings missing somewhere,
Tears are not coming,
But somewhere they are abound,
Again I say to myself no probs.

Its all bout what I think,
What am I doing,
But deep within I knw,
Its the real happiness that matters.

I stop running after the mirage,
Gave my life a pause,
Asked the all powerful for direction,
And Then I found My WAY!!!

Time goes on...

I looked back on time, when thy said it was mine.
I took all the sacks, so that into them " time" I could pack.
I tried n tried, but all in vain. The end result was still the same.
I just let more of it slip away then the amount I could catch.
And then it dawned upon me, I was catching that could not be caught.
The time bygone was never mine, the time to come is not mine,
its the present time that is mine and am wasting it all the time.
I again looked back and the time was smiling and then I realized,
it was something that I could never catch but yes I can live upto full,
the time I have with me, the time I can live within.

I came to write something today and thought writin bout the current affairs, but the above lines flowed even before on the screen I did stare. This was something totally unexpected as nothing was in my concious mind but yup, nobody can vouch for the subconcious.
Today, I had my 3rd paper and now only one is left. Yesterday night, when I laid on my bed and was letting my thoughts flow. I suddenly realised that I was thinking about my past few years : how they had been? how I had fared all these years and all. It was nothing specific to start with but later on something stirred my mind. Past few months for me had both happy and sad memories. But I chose to remember the happy ones :) . I made a lot of friends and god was really gracious to have bestowed to me some very good friends. My time spent with them though was small but it was really of high quality. All these things made me happy.
But now as I sat writing, somethings pinching me. Its all about to change, the times, the surroundings and all. As they say " Nothing is permanent except change" , I was just thinking is it necessary for everything, yes, everything to change. Then, it suddenly dawned upon me : Was I holding things too tight? Was I trying to hold time in my hand? Was I just like any other person, not wanting to accept the truth? Or am I sensitive or insensitive?
Don't know what to say, but this question of being sensitive and insensitive really bugged me. It really one important question to which's answer am desperately trying to find out. Does being practical means you are insensitive ? Or I may put it in a some better words - Does taking the reality into your stride means you are insensitive or you dont care for people? Am really at loss for this thing. I know that now the time is not far when I will have to forgo my home, when I will be joining my job. And when I would leave this city, I would also leave many things behind. But, it does not mean that I will leave my old relations behind. They were there,they are there, they will be there and will remain for eons. But, for some its an end to relations and all. You could not have each and everything you want, for gaining something, somethings have to be forgone. So, its upto you what do you want and what choice you make and then you continue on that path.
Its again the same old story with me, trying to tell something else and something other has come out. But, then this topic was also looming in mind mind for sometime back, so it came out here. Its a few days left for me to leave this place and start afresh, but then I want to live my life in present and while trying to do so, I don't try to hurt anyone, but still if I have done that in the process am sorry for it.
So, there goes my thoughts.... and lets see when something new crops up here.... till then...
bbye
take care

Yours
Manish

Exams are on...

It has been quite a few days that I have not visited this place... was sort of busy... ( well had to say that... ). Anyways, my exams are going on so was gettin lil time for bloggin. Actually, was not in the mood to write something new... but now its ok. Today, had my first paper and now its 3 more to go... then comes the part everybody is waiting for or not rather... the day when the exams are over and its party time and then the parting time....
Well well, let those things remain the way they are. Today was my first paper for final semester and now at the moment very happy. Well its like 1 down and 3 more to go at todays date. Chalo yaar no more of this crappy stuff of me 'n' my studies... there are much better things in life to think n write about ;) .
Life is full of different colors... its upto us what color we want to see. Its like whenever there is light we have a dark shadow... but that shadow has also got some qualities, its upto u what u see the darkness or the teachin that... when in the light of glory everybody is with you.... but in the darness of oblivion you are all alone... so try to find real gems... n dont b too busy collecting stones when you realise suddenly that you have lost a diamond. A true friend is worth a million dollors so dont lose that friend.
I dont knw what am i scribbling at this moment but still I had let it remain there. I dont knw how everyone faces life.. as to every other person his life is at the worst period while all the persons by his side are enjoying their life to max. Its not like that, each and everyone of us has got our own special problems but the tough ones dont always blame the circumstances and cry over the problem, they work on the problem ... solve it and come out victorious of the situation. Some say that its easy to preach but hard to follow... but sometimes the preachings come from our own experiences.... neways too much of this stuff..... now am goin to stop....
If u ppl out there think this whole post is absurd dont blame me as my exams are going on... so here on this page comes the after effects of my not studtyin for the exams... oops! did I write not studyin... neways now its written let it be.... Chalo then... i'll take ur leave...
BBye
Take care

And Wish me luck for Exams.....
Yours
Manish

Oh those 4 years in college...

The cool wind gushes by,

I stand still in the open sky,

Up and high the clouds fly,

The memories come flooding to thy,

All the friends walking by,

Also the girls, to whom I was shy,

The green grass on which we used to lie,

Looking at the bluest of the blue sky,

To Canteen's patties, pasteries and pie,

The night parties we used to enjoy,

The drinks and smokes we used to try,

In fights setting standards high,

To gibing at lecturers n Profs passing by,

From freshers day to farewels suit and tie,

And many more things,that my thoughts belie,

The meaning for me of the 4 years gone by,

It was like a star studded night sky,

And now its the time to say goodbye,

To a life that made me laugh and cry,

Now I am a free bird in earnest to fly,

But to a destination not known to thy,

Alone, alone in the open sky,

With no 4 years to share my sorrows and joy.

Those 4 years have passed by...........

I dunno :)

Well writing a post after some time... but this also isn't something great... these were the few lines written by me... while having a talk with my friend.... I don't know if these make any sense... but then thought should put it here... so here are they... :)

I walk, walk through the life,
See the world, world in binds,
Live the life, life so confused,
I meet, meet and part in life,
Think about good, good & bad alike,
Take the pen, pen down the thoughts,
Close the eyes, eyes so beautiful,
Deep within, within feelings came & go,
I am awake, awake but not concious,
Well just learn, learn bout life,
Alone in chain, chain in the mind,
Free to fly, fly with full freedom,
Reach to thy, thy is the kingdom.

P.s. Well the title of the post just came to my mind... just as I dunno y...

Parting... that never was.... :)

A few days back, I had a gud fight with one of my best friends.... as usual, it started on some idiotic note and don't knw how it ballooned into a heated argument... which resulted into solid fight. Well, after the fight, we both were sulkin (haha... I knew bout myself n later bout my frnd ;) ). But the fight was such huge that we both were unwilling to talk to each other.... so now what to do... our ego's were turning out to be bigger than us....
Later on, after some time I realised that I am hurtin myself more by losing such a good frnd... and then I felt very bad... so I told myself... even if we are partin ways.. it shud be done in a very nice manner.... there shud be no hard feelings.... so just out of the blue... i jotted down somelines.... and sent it to my frnd....

Here are those lines :

"i learnt a lot from u, i taught a lot to u,
i fought a lot with u, I listened a lot to u,
i made fun of u, I made a fool of myself for u,
i scolded u a lot, u returned the favour on spot,
i made u angry at times, u made me angry at times,
i spoke a lot bout u, I never knew bout u,
i was a child, u were a child,
I was similar to u, u were similar to me,
I thought all was fine, u were on cloud nine,
I failed to understand u, u never told me what u thought,
I almost lost u, u justs thought the same,
I have now lost u, life will never b the same,
I cherish our talks n fights, the wrongs n rights,
the darknes n lights, the song n sights,
but all is gone, n none is here,
Life gave a beautiful friend,i lost the gift,
life taught me a lesson, never to cause a rift."

Well... the lines had their effect.... there was a reply on mail.... and after that we resumed talking... so its like "all well that ends well".... Neways, but I revised an ol' lesson... a broken friendship is more painful, than a hurt ego.... so never try to bring ego in between the frnds... just try to sort out the matter....

Njoy ur time on earth
Manish

P.S. - Had nothin new to write... so had written down.. this incident :D