Thoughts in random...

Got nothin new to write, so now whatever come to my mind will be down here... I don't know what will the final result but then lifes like that you never know the final outcome.. you can just predict... but then truth is stranger than fiction...

One cannot predict what will happen to him in future... talkin bout future... one cannot say bout the next moment... whatever may happen one should always face it and accept it... as its one's dharma to do his karma and not worry bout the result... :) .. thats what the age old teachin goes from GITA... but do you think it applies in the present world...

Do we work on that principle? Do we really not worry about the outcome of actions we take? Are we really that detached that we continue to work even if we are not gettin any positive outcome? Well, thats to say I study for my exams n don't worry bout the results :D ( hey.. then why am i so tense on the results day???? ......) I work at office n I don't worry bout my appraisals and promotions.... hahahahahhaa....... ( Then Y work day n night.....) Or furhter more I write post on the blog and then wait for ppls to react.... ;) ( well, yes ppls reaction is a result.... ) ..... pata nahin aur bhi kai baar hum log results ke liye he kaam karte hain....

This is the truth thats prevailing much today.... and does it have a sense of fulfillment... sometimes I feel yes there is, while sometimes there isn't. God knows what and where he wants to take us. Does he pulls the strings or have we broken away from him or is it we were never under him? Many questions but no answers.... many myths but no explanations.....

Yes, but am still searchin for the answer..... and the search goes on..........

Memories...

"As I sat by the river, looking at the flowing waters...
a ripple made me see, my yesteryears in the mirror...
the age of innocence, the brashness of a young man...
the making of a man, to a frail old man...
The waters said to me " Enjoy as much as you can...
for this is how your story ran..."
I lived my life again, felt the time become still...
And carry these moments to the end, I will... "

The word that makes you feel happy... sad... good... bad... beautiful... ugly... and a great variety of feelings is "memories" ..... memories of your life..... those you have lived in.... those which you are creating.... those which you will be wanting to live again and again. They are a very part of our existance.
Well well... let me tell you , how I got to this word or thing.... actually today my college was closed... so we friends (4 of us) decided to go for a drive and some timepass.... while on the move my friend said that we have just bout 4 months of stayin together and after that we will be parting and goin for jobs etc. This thing make me realised the 4 years we had spent together and all the fun we had. My mind was flooded with all the memories of past years.... the fights we had... the fun ....the teasings.... affairs.... parties and much more. This all made me feel little sad bout leaving my friends but then life is all bout changes and one has to be ready to accept those changes as they come. We all thought bout the our lifes after college... and decided that the time we are left with will be utilized to full and we will make the most of it, so that these pleasant memories will last long.
So, this was the genesis of the topic for me. I sat there thinking over it and realised that yes... someday or the other we have to leave and all that is left with us are the memories, which have accumulated over a period of time. We search into them when we are alone and have no one to comfort us. We look for those sweet moments that still make us laugh... tears make up for the sad ones... they give us the strength as well as weaken us... this is the thing that man wants the most and hates the most... as its a double edged sword...
Well well things have to go this way only.... people get sad when they are parting but then they dont realise that they are only leaving people behind but taking memories with them. You cannot always have your own way... if it was like that, then we would never let our near and dear ones depart from the earth... and yet they depart leavin a whole lot of memories behind them. Yes, it feels sad to leave someone behind but then sometimes its necessary and who says to leave someone behind, we can always be in contact and still be friends, but also we will be making new friends at new place. Memories are those which lie in the heart and they remain there till the end. Its upto a person how he looks at them.....
And I always want to have memories of those pleasant times that I had with my friends, family and everyone throughout my life.... they mean a lot to me.... they form a basis of my existance and they just remind me that I am not alone...

Expectations...

"I won't talk to him first, he should call me first."
" I won't talk to you, you never tell me anything."

Well these are few of those incidents that we face in our day to day life. We are always expecting one thing or other from someone around us. When we have a tiff with our friend, we always expect him to break the ice. We are always expecting a thing or other at every moment... but then we fail to realise that... havin expectations are ok, but when they are not fulfilled, we should have the heart to accept it. But, that does not happen always. We are hurt in some way or the other due to the incident and remember it over period of time as basically, that breakin of our expectation has hurt our ego and when ego is hurt... the scars remain....



From, the time we are born, expectations are born with us as is our ego... we expect our mother to know that we are hungry and feed us.... if not we cry like hell and then only after some persuation do we quiten. When, we grow older, we expect our parents to fulfill our demands , then be it rational or not... remember the day when your father forgot to bring the toy, u were expecting, n how you felt... your heart ached, you refused to have food that day... and your parents were troubled with your behaviour.... But for u the toy was more important not your parents n their troubles at that time. It was like that, How could they forget my toy.....
When we are in our youth... expectations grow by leaps n bounds... we are constantly expecting a thing from someone or other.... from parents, from friends , from teachers etc... but, we forget that the more we expect, the more trouble we are creating for ourselves.... as unfulfilled expectations are not easy at heart... they make us sour, for the time being, we lose control of ourselves.... n thats the worst a man can have for himself as when you dont practice self control, your actions belie you n those moments have great influence on your surroundings...
All said true,.. but its hard not to have expectations, as if one achieves that feat he is as good as one who has renounced the world... So, I dont say to forgo all your expectations, but yes, somethings can be done bout it.... we can always make ourselves ready for any situation, for any critical moment..... But one foremost thing that, we should always try to limit our expectations... and also when we are expecting something from someone, it should be within rational limits, worldly matters should be kept in mind and so on....
There are many things in this context, which I am still exploring, but have realised one thing truly, that the less the expectations the more happy you r, as surpirses always make you happy.... in other words, the unexpected is more pleasant n joyous that expected ones.... just remember the times when there were good surprises for u, an unexpected b'day party or an unexpected gift.... and how happy you were at that moment..... as if you would do anything to live that day again...... yes, thats the power of the unexpected........
So, just be calm, be cool, n live the life in a noble fashion........ set benchmarks for your ownself and try to match them.... leave the world aside.......... just try not to expect from them, but try to keep your expectations to yourself....... n always try to fulfill them n njoy the essence of success...... God will be always there with you!!!!!!!!

Laugh.... laugh.....laugh............

"Laugh n the world laughs with you.........
Cry n you cry alone............"

Its an age old word of wisdom, that when u are happy the whole world seems to be beautiful to you, while when u r depressed the world becomes drab, with all the colors missing from it. Its all the perception of your mind... its how u would like to see the surroundings n you see it in that way. You r totally oblivion to the feeling of others around you, the beautiful sounds of life does not find the way to your heart... they just get stuck up in the way n get lost in your body..... We just try to alienate ourselves from the reality or I may say that "circumstances"... b'coz its only the escapist who get frustrated and don't want to look into the face of life and accept the challenge... they r the ones who just say that life is difficult or its tough to survive in this big, bad world...... but then to their own knowledge there are others who r surviving n leading a happy life... its just the perception that needs to be changed.
We all like a person who is smiling n happy all the time... he's the person who's sought by people for comfort, they like to share their problems with him as they know that, he can provide a solution to the problem. The world always looks upto the one who is ready to face any kind of situation and that too with a smiling face. The reality hits hard but when you take it into your srtide it hurts you less, than when you try to deny it. The more willingly you accpet the facts and ponder on them for a possible solution, the more clear headed you will be. Life throws many challenges to you and then sees to it that how you face them. You can only help other, when you yourself are having an uncluttered mind. An open mind is always ready to welcome than a closed mind as in the closed mind, there is always paucity of space... while in an open mind there is always abundance of space....
Laughing and crying are both the part of the life, its only upto you, which of these two - you want more of- a good laugh or a bitter weep. Change the perception towards life and see it changes its way towards you....... if you spread laughs, it will give you laughs and if you spread bitterness, it will give bitterness to you.... It only reflects whatever your actions are... and same is with the world. You get back what you give to the world. So, if you spread laughter.... your life will be filled with laughter...... so, its always better to spread smiles...... grins....... giggles.......... n a wholehearted laugh.... and then see the whole universe returns it to you......

Timepass..... ;)

Today, I had my XAT paper as usual.... kuch nahin bana paper mein :) aur mujhe to neend bhi bahut aa rahi the.. to I was just thinkin ke kab paper khatam ho aur mein ghar par aake so jaaun...khair no probs... Any how the paper went by... n the ordeal was over. Now was very happy another paper went by.... as yesterday was just thinkin that for whole round the year the only work that I do regularly is to give exams.... apart from daily chores ;) Each n every month ther is some sort of exams... some regular college some competitive etc... only thing is that ke now exams don't make me tense. They just come n go by just like a bad dream.... but one that haunts you for a good number of years n that too on a regular basis....

Well, speakin bout other things... today I was not in a state to write something of my usual stuff... my mind is on a holiday for a couple of days... so its me in the orignal form n scribbling all over :D ... Its just like blabbering unlimited hehehehehe..... but then its ok.... Life's like that only... the more we make ourselves njoy it the more it seems to b beautiful... the more we worry bout it the more it gives us reasons to b tense... so, I usually spend a day or two without my mind... whenever it starts to overflow with all crap bout the world.... it empties itself in a day or two... relexes a bit n is again ready for duty in this ol' model.... so no worry, no tension, just timepass thats goin on in my life...... n till its time for a next write-up.... a very big hug( jaadu ki jhappi) n au revoir............

Out of my mind

Hi, friends wishing you all a Very Happy and a Prosperous New Year...... I know that I am somewhat late in wishin, but as it is good wishes are always welcome :)

2005 has been a year full of happenings... for me it holds both pleasent and pinching memories... but then life's like that... nobody can dictate it, its always bout trying trying n trying... sometimes you suceed n sometimes not..... nyways, on the last day of 2005 I was reading a book titled " Out of My Mind " ( from here comes my post's title..) by - Richard Bach.
It was certainely a wonderful book... a book that makes you see youself in a different perspective... a feeling of surprise sweeps over you, when the things said by the author start making sense... Its all bout the 'Mind' ... yes, the most powerful tool god has bestowed upon us.
All that goes around us makes an impression on our minds..... in a better way - in each and every action we do, our mind is involved... All things generate out of our mind, it has got tremendous amount of power... its upto you, how you utilise the potential of your mind... Thats why, all those who practice meditation are usually fresh n feel always cheerful, as their mind is fresh due to meditation which brings bout an air of calmness with it...
We always look with awe to those who have been able to control their mind... we all try to control our mind on similar lines but in vain as it requires practice, just like " Rome was not built in a day". What we do, we think, we dream - all has got link to our mind... it only determines our success or failure, how well we are able to control it the more it reflects on ourselves... A calm and cool mind is the solution to all problems... while an agitated mind makes way for more trouble...
Thus, to make most of ur mind, one should be able to control his mind and the one who controls his mind conquers the world.